June Progress

and my plans for 2021/2022

I spoke with Krauser last week and asked him outright the following:

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Meeting a high-value, desirable young woman who is besotted with you is, for the older man, the equivalent of a lottery ticket that you choose not to cash. There is an overriding sense of futility to it. You are damned if you do, and damned if you don’t. Choose not to reciprocate and keep them at arms length? Then you are either an exceptionally strong man with a large range of such women to choose from. Or, more likely, you are dating 6s – not 8s. Should you go ‘all in’ then be prepared for the day when it ends because it will and it does. Of my 29 daygame girls I have had strong feelings for 2 of them and loved 1 of them. That is 1 in 15 girls I meet from daygame I fall for. If this ratio continues over the next 2 years of journey at my current rate I will meet 2 more women I fall for (but see below).

I am fascinated with Krauser’s journey which involves having met and dated a huge range of attractive young women, but somehow managing to keep that emotional distance in place. A consequence of being on the road as much as was, no doubt. But we all change. The volte-face in his position is real and I urge all men in their late 20s and 30s to consider this – because it will come. It came for Krauser, and it has for me.

When you start dating a girl who is an 8 or above (as my ex-Czech girl is) ask yourself why you feel the need to chase and fuck 7s. In my case, I stayed in daygame because I knew, despite my feelings for her, that the relationship was untenable long-term. I denied simple reality.

As I finished up with another daygame lay in Poland (#29) with a nice, but slightly wacky 24 year old, I lay on my bed in a loft apartment as she attended to me. She was eager to please, and gave me a full body massage all the way down to my feet. I was only slightly drunk. I had been in Poland almost a week and already I was broken with the lack of sleep, the drinking, the walking and the finality of a breakup with a girl I was besotted with. I missed the bond more than the sex. There I was, lying naked in bed with a pretty, petite blonde 24 year old, but my head was filled with the desire for a pretty, petite 21 year old.

I lay there and ruminated on my ‘predicament’ as she did everything to please me. She’s almost half my age, has lovely tits, a fantastic arse (better than my Czech girl) and seemed completely smitten by me. From the street-stop (she curtsied to me) through text to the two dates she mad the whole process easy – because she liked me. She has a keen mind and a wicked sense of humour, I told myself, before countering with, she’s brash, too colourful, lacks that easy magnetic femininity that just sucks men in via her voice tone, speech and mannerisms.

I fell asleep with her in arms and fucked her again in the morning. Just as she was leaving, I asked her if she had everything,

Everything but my dignity, she replied with a smile.

I sat back in my apartment and began some broad reflections on what I am now looking for over the next 12 months:

1. I will still chase younger, hotter, tighter. I need this. Innate desire cannot be curtailed as a single man.
2. But my overall priority is to make serious attempts to find a real, meaningful girlfriend.
3. I am seriously considering taking time out of work, 12 months or so, to work on point 2. Incipient visits to overseas cities I know are all well and good for point 1, but they do not facilitate progress with point 2. Finding a woman to seriously consider for a relationship requires deeper immersion. Unpopular Reality: the two daygame ‘relationships’ I have had had (one Polish girl and one Czech girl) were both girls I met in my home town. Who would come to mine twice per week. We would shop together, walk together, cook together, do all the normal things together that no-one talks about on Twitter. Despite my home town being essentially lowest tier for quality, there are good women be found. I will continue to game in my home town and intend to up my intensity because sometimes the answer really does stare you in the face.
4. UPDATE TO 3. I have now firmly resolved to take a sabbatical in 2022. Time is my depreciating currency, and I am at an age where I want to concentrate on other priorities – happiness over career. I will look to engineer an exit strategy that sees an episode of gardening leave and my provisional idea is to spend 3 weeks abroad each month from March 2022 for a year or so. I have a home-base all set up and this is a key piece of leverage in the relationship quest. As I write this, on July 1st 2021, I begin the second half of the year having to literally pick myself up from some pretty dark places following some uncomfortable lessons resulting from this breakup; some uncomfortable truths about how quickly a woman who loves you can change, and the pain of seeing them do this – viscerally – right before your eyes. This said. I am finding increasing strength and renewed motivation to use the rest if this year as best as I can. I have basically 6 weeks leave allocation to play with. This is something like 1.5 weeks off work per month between now and October. 2022 will be on us in no time at all, and hopefully this Chinese Virus does not inhibit any of the possibilities between now and the aim of next year.

June Stats

I did 96 sets across June between England and Poland.

Sets: 96

Numbers: 22

Instagram: 15

Dates: 9 (2 dates with an 18 year old from November 2020 and 2 dates with a +1)

Lays: 1

Not too worried about this. The bulk of these girls are very attractive and I have some solid leads in play that I am hoping to develop across 2021.

There are probably 4 girls in this total that could ‘come off’ including a stunning 27 year old Ukrainian girl. The right age cohort, for sure.