Confidence, a diary piece.

I’ve had 8 daygame lays this year, so far. Six overseas, and two in the UK.

Life should be good; I should feel on top of the world. I’m doing it right, surely, after all?

A number of leads have disappeared this last week. A number of leads have just displayed a complete lack of engagement after promising starts. Girls in Poland display no interest. Just this weekend, three gave me the I’m not interested message.

I have no real prospects in my home town, bar a sexy Egyptian I opened at the beginning of the month.

I think back to this time two years ago as I was daygaming in my city centre. Things just feel different, now. I don’t know if this difference in feeling is truly in my head, based on reality or more likely, a mixture of the two. I have aged two years, after all. Do I look noticeably older? Is this a weasel, or a piece of buried self-realisation that has floated to the surface of my reality? Am I fatigued with the reality of British (and Westernised foreign) women?

I have done 16 sets this month in the UK for one tepid lead. I also did 16 sets in March that went nowhere. That is 32 sets (an admittedly small number) comprised of largely obnoxious British women incapable of holding a (sober) conversation with a man on the street instead of a (drugged/drunk) man in a club, or via an image-hook (Tinder) online.

Two years ago I was fearless. I would approach the hottest women with a sense of entitlement, humour and deep relaxation. I still do this to a greater degree, but the delicious velvety feeling of approach anxiety/nerves has been replaced (largely) by experience of knowing. Knowing that the majority of these approaches will be met by apathy/disinterest/suspicion/retardery.

I am slightly angry with myself for this rationalisation born out of experience. One of my major inner-game challenges now is to remove/overwrite this experience module and just get back on with it – imbued with that newbie love and enthusiasm. Being two years older, is, of course, a detriment. And being two years more experienced is actually a curse and not a blessing contrary to what you may think.

My challenge for May is to rediscover my youthful inexperience – and simply get back on with it – with a smile on my face.

BroodingSea, April 2022.


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One response to “Confidence, a diary piece.”

  1. George Lazenby fan avatar
    George Lazenby fan

    Interesting.

    Some thoughts. Some cities are not target rich to do daygame. TT was in the second or third largest Czech city (Bryno I guess), difficult. Or, smaller cities (like your home town) are Bryno, good for a week or two to number farm, and then move to London.

    In western Countries, hot/smart/healthy women are working/studying and logistically difficult (if not impossible) to come across during the day time.

    Solution: A la MM, go to target richt locations at night (or utilize gutter game a la TT). Well, small city is still small, hence, 90% of your time should be spent on health and wealth.

    Or just move to the City of London, work there, and you can meet hot open minded Essex girls during your lunch time (1 hr number farming every lunch tim). In the late afternoon, many pubs are full. (Or you need to do TT style hardcore all over the world to have flow).

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